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Tried talkin to him today. .
Failed miserably.
God... im dumb till i couldnt have seen it comin sooner.
Damn damn damn! And i thought i've gotten e self-control wingding ingrained in me already..
Feeling dead guilty too cos i keep havin thoughts tat i didnt quite put it to him as wad i intended too? Heaven forbid if he hears those words and it shoves itself up his arse or somethin along tat line. .
Worse now since nair changed seating arrangements.. he's like within 4feet radius at most. And his seating partner's.... oh, nvm. Let's jus say i wished she would spare me details. I havent got e capacity to contain my jealousy at all times.
I hate this. It shouldnt have come down to this.
Im childish, idiotic, yet.. i think at least wise enough to understand consequences before it totally defuncts me.
