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Friday, February 25, 2005

Ya know.. there come times in ur life where u feel it's as if God's testing ya.
On whether u truely rely on His ultimate love and strength to carry u thru wadeva u may face, on whether u really have pure child-like faith to jus pour evrything out to Him.
Dunno whether tat sounded blasphemious, or whether it's jus me in a foul mood.
But knoe wad? If it is true. .

Im so not gonna fail this test.
I think i love Him too much to do that.

But depressingly... it so so so tough to do it!! Argh! Satan is such a s***head.
Lately been havin these huge migranes tat keeps throbbing and throbbing and blah blah blah, assignments are really killing too.
slowly.
Even now while im sittin here a-bloggin. Wad's runnin thru me noggin is:

5 tests comin up. Physics, SS, and Lit on mon. Chem on tues. Hist on wed.
Art assignment to finish up. Obs.. developments.. layouts...
Rehearsals on both SCI and Speech Day evry wed, thurs and fri.
oh.. normal schwork of cos. Thankfully im only left wif maths, eng vocab, eng compo, physics, and yeo's wayway overdued camp reflection.

Tryin to balance oh-so-precariously my family, service, friends, studies, funtime, finances, (not in order of cos.) but it's been so tiring. Feel so taken for granted at times. Shant elaborate too much on why.
But sometimes it's also on my part.. be it im too over-sensitive, or thinking too much.

Darn.. God help me. Literally.

But still, if u refer to e first paragraph eh? U'd see why im still sitting here typin instead of sittin in some miserable toilet cubicle slitting my wrist.

Daddy up there is beautiful. *smiles*

Im goin back to mugging now peeps. Dunt forget i love u guys :)

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