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At stevendawnie's bloggin this now.
Today is a day of experience.
yups.
Backup singing for this morn's worship service, and met jack on e train there. We were talkin bout something that i guess was on e whole team's mind ya. One by one, our team for this sunday was like facing severe spiritual warfare.
One wif a sorethroat, another called in sick this morn, another had a bad night before, another at his grandma's passing, another sprained her ankle, and another strained his shoulder.. It was actually kinda scary.
But we took heart that if e devil(irritating git. .)'s bothering us, that means we're on e right track in drawing people into e Lord's presence. Else IT wouldnt have bothered.
Anyway, after a soundcheck gone wrong which left us with only 10mins to prac.. guess our morale was kinda low. But still, we prayed and just let it be a time of pure worship.
Know wad, suddenly noticed flags at e back of e chapel waving. Janet and Janice were actually dancing wif huge flags, one red one blue. (red for redemption.. blue for Holy Spirit)
And, personally, when i saw e flags and my sisters rejoicing over by e chapel door.. felt really encouraged and in a way, protected. Flags are used in battle for signs of victory and it was like our very own mini colour-party there. Especially when they danced at e chapel door, e opening, it just felt. .right.
Shared with Dawn and she had e same sentiments too :)
It's times like this when we are literally brought to our knees to commit everything to God.
Adonai.
The Bitchianoes hit town today!! *smirk*
. . . . . . .
Okok.. it all started with e darf Russel Peters thingy, with e 'Indiano' and e (oh gosh, how could i forget..
'I give you good price. $34.50!') name 'Bitchianoes' basically stuck with tsu, aka Psychobitch, and me :P
It sounds like some kinda freak mafiaso family or somethin knoes? Mwahahaa~
So anywaez, we headed for haircuts first at far east. Tsu 'persuaded' me to have a new look by her fav hairdresser.
Reluctantly did so.
And i knew something was definitely wrong when we headed for this salon called "D.I.V.A."
But e cut turned out really well tho. Hehe, it's cropped once again. It's now Shlong. (tsunez's lingo for short-long)
Sweeeeeet.
We headed all over on this whacked shopping spree after that. Hahaa, she got me e Last Empress book in return for a book thong at Borders. (Sigh.. such a name for such an innocent object. .) But e dumb thing was i needed dress sandals and a top, and we intended to head for FarEast again.
BACKTRACK: Tsu's parents met us halfway thru for lunch at Orchard Towers.. e belacan salad was superbly good :D
But dunno wad possessed us to walk in e direction of Heeren... *smacks forehead*
Then along e way there was this Starwars promo procession with Darth and his cronies walking down Wisma to who-knows-where, and we kept laughin hysterically over this fat Luke Skywalker with a potbelly. Oh yeah.. cutest thing was Darth had e breathing thingy & e Starwars Theme ~durdur dur duuuur~ playing repeatedly frm inside his suit too.
All in all I blew like close to 100bucks(!!!) on tat day itself. *sobs*
My darn SAVING resolution all shoved up my yeah-yeah.
But it was a really funkay day out lahz. Gotta cherish it while we still can. Hahaa, alrighty.. off to play Aliens vs Pred now.
jh introduced me to e joys of facehugging mere mortals. Whahaa!
Ciaoz
P.S: tsu.. PUR-LEEZE improve on ur shopping stamina alright??! Oh, and e butt neos' still perky. *grins*
Heyhey, guess wad.. im gonna have my teeth whitened!! *grins with sparkly grin now*
Or shall i say TOOTH.
Had this childhood accident when i was like 5 or something, and it left me with a brownish tinge on my upper front tooth. So durin this sch dental checkup thingy(in those mobile clinics, no less) i was askin e doc whether it was a crown or a filling left for too long by previous dentists.. and whether it's possible to change a new one.
SHE SAID YES!!
oh, God is awesome. Blissed.. blissed..
Happy to announce it's now 2 shades whiter.
Hahaa, ahwells.. but wad struck me durin e wait in e mobile was that there were these 2 boys before me (one on e dental chair) who were like totally freaked out by e experience. And i mean FREAKED out. Maybe me, and many others i'm sure, have been blessed with a capability of not being terrified of visiting e dentist... but still it's really heartwrenching to see these boys so traumatized. .
E boy on e chair had his legs practically convulsing.. and when e doc started e screechy -screechy-thingy-that-basically-evryone-hates-to-hear to clean his teeth and gums, e boy sitting jus next to me started to perspire. Real bad. He was squinching his eyes up whenever e "screeeeech" takes place and little did he know i was like captivated by e beads of sweat pouring down.
But still, everyone has their weakneses. The 2 boys for e dentist experience.. and something else for me. *smiles*
DISCLAIMER: This post is dedicated to publicising [tsu:]'s (wad's with e colon and those boxy thingys huh, gal?) awe-fully ugly blog which im soooo envious of. Yups. *polite smile*
Oh, anywae.. jus go visit thinbitch-fatcow.blogspot.com alright? She'll love u to bits if u do.
Mwahahaaa~
ciaozees!
--> psst.. u owe me TCC this sat, you psychobitch you, for extra colours and sprucing up! And yesh. I still lurve you lahz~~
:PpPp
ur neo-nazi bitch.
There was like this cloak of peaceful calm over e 2 tables at e restaurant tonight.
We're celebrating gran's birthday :)
As for e cloak thing? Nah.. jus bullshitting.
We may be anticipating or even resigned to wadever fate that may befall this family. But still, we cling on to e hope that ah ma will get thru this new year.
Made this card for her as a bday pressie. Nth much i know.. jus a whole family pic in front, deco-spruce it up a lil, and penned somethin for her in chinese.
yeah.. C.H.I.N.E.S.E.
oh, surprise surprise~
And e adults were like damn excited knoe. As if they've never seen anythin like it before!
.............................................
Well... actually come to think of it. . they've really never seen anythin like it before. . ... heh
Personally felt that it was kinda simple cause it's killing me to express wad i felt in chinese, but guess it's e effort right? ahwells.
But was kinda touched by wad me big bro did. He actually framed up some pics of him and gran at some of his BB functions, and gave her his Founder's badge. He slogged 18/70 of his life away for that badge and then now he's givin it to her. Gosh... he really does have a heart. hahaa, kiddin lah.
All in all, i think gran was really savouring the time she has. She said stuff like this dinner might be her last with e whole family and all, and it's really painful hearing that. But still, we plain have no control over how long we have left before e Lord calls us home.
Like i said. We cling on to hope.
One word to describe wad im feelin: Numb.
Gran been told that she has cancer. It's finally been let out in e open.
The worse thing was that just a few weeks ago while havin dinner with e whole family, she sorta gave a speech bout how thankful she was that she's been given a second chance in life and stuff.
And now...
e stupid, painful reality of life.
Our parents are now discussing whether to let her go for chemo or not. Really dunno. We, as kids, jus shaddup and watch/listen no matter how much it hurts.
God, Your will be done.
Uh-huh. Today was cool :)
Went to mike & elena's place at BishanParkCondo(u heard me Ade.. BishanPark!! whahahhaa! and it faces e sch too. *winks*) in e evenin for vocal training wif e worship team. Sis Ruth is such a sweetie.
And e apartment? It is ohmegosh gorgeousez!!
I repeat.
G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S.
It's uber chic and bright. Plus two dogs running about to boot. (jackie keeps sliding it's butt on e polished floor. .gross.)
Anywaes, prac was really helpful. In so many ways.
Din know jerry has a baritione voice..sigh~ Hahaa, and tat mine matches sandra's when we sing. And tat sharon has a lovely, light sweet voice. And tat dinner of fishball mee turns cold after 2 hrs. . . ahwells.
It's dead in e night now. I'd letcha knoe how next wk's session turns out then!
Goo-nite ppl.
Here I am.
Oh so early in the mornin.
To start this day,
In the perfect way.
To close my eyes & bow my knees..
Father, take Your will & let it be.
To scream in frustration, or break into tears..
To pour out my worries, my sorrows, my fears.
To mourn at the losses this world can bring..
Yet smile when i think of my perfect King.
To recieve a hug, or steal a kiss..
To fervently pray for those I miss.
To ponder, to ask, yet I'll never see,
Why He chose to bleed on that old, rugged tree.
But one thing I'm sure, is that through it all,
Although I'll stumble, trip and fall..
I'll press on with His amazing grace,
And one day.. oh one day,
I'll see His face.
Blessed Easter darlings
Tried talkin to him today. .
Failed miserably.
God... im dumb till i couldnt have seen it comin sooner.
Damn damn damn! And i thought i've gotten e self-control wingding ingrained in me already..
Feeling dead guilty too cos i keep havin thoughts tat i didnt quite put it to him as wad i intended too? Heaven forbid if he hears those words and it shoves itself up his arse or somethin along tat line. .
Worse now since nair changed seating arrangements.. he's like within 4feet radius at most. And his seating partner's.... oh, nvm. Let's jus say i wished she would spare me details. I havent got e capacity to contain my jealousy at all times.
I hate this. It shouldnt have come down to this.
Im childish, idiotic, yet.. i think at least wise enough to understand consequences before it totally defuncts me.
HAPPY HAPPY BDAE PREET!!!
You basically rawk my world babe~
Cheerie0os for ur whole new 17th yr.
God bless.
*uber huge grinz*
Hope u like e pressie!
Love ya loads,
nez.
-Biatche_sistaz kick ass-
Ka-ching baby!! Then it's off to Bugis slash Bugis St. Damn.. tat's was e bucks flew And e household stuffs.. Basically it was dead fun. Company rawked especially. Hahaa!
Oh gosh.. it's been oh-so-long since me and daddyo last went on a shopping spreeeeee!
Total bill sorta amounted up to 122bucks with me+dad both chipping in.
*blushes*
Starters, it waz off to Beach Road for..
Thanks pops.. it was great bridging e 'gap' (if dere ever was one!)
-muacksterz-
Im laughing my butt off now.
whahahahaa!
Kays, it all started wif lil ol muah surfin a lil net.. checkin out friendsters' account to accept invos frm e junior councillors.. (Adonis dear, for e 492,671th time.. u're ALREADY in my account alright?) when this invo came up under e name of 'opss chio&shuai'.
It seems like there's this someone out dere (obviously wif no life) who happens to take vivid fascination in tryin to find all e pretty/handsome/chio/shuai/wadeva students in sch and adding them in this webbie. After i laugh my guts out for like eternity, have to admit tat i was kinda flattered la. . but... omg! For heaven's sake, u dont have to stoop so low!!
Ya know, e page even has this ranking system that rates ur looks frm A* to C.
and this warning tag that states "yOU cAn aDd uS iF u thInk tHat u haVE thE lOoks. But STOP ADDING US IF U HAVE BEEN REJECTED!!!"
Manz.. seriously cant believe e shallowness of society at times. .
Is beauty, brawn and breasts all ppl think abt nowadays??
Okok, let reality slap us in e face.. who wouldnt want to look at pretty stuff right? Even i would choose to stare at a bouquet of roses than a pile of manure. But to let this admiration become an obsession... it's too much knoe.
Character still plays a huge majority in a person's life. Heh.. tat's my opinion. Not sure bout urs ya? But wadeva it is, just take it with a pinch of salt.
U'd get wrinkles mulling too much over all these :p
Oh boy oh boy slash gollee-gee!! March hols are here!!!
..................
Arh crap. who am i kiddin. .
There's gonna be like classes EVERYDAY of this week ppl. So whoever rubs this H-word into my face will die a slow painful fate worse than O'levels alright?
Anywaez, at least me weekends are sorta more relaxing la. Still keepin to my schedule of meeting Janice sat morn for BS, then it's workwork at spcb, then if God and my finance permits. . it's an evenin show bfore gettin back to work again. Mostly art at night. Keeps e nightmares away lahz..... hehe
Ya know, sometimes i feel e pressure building.
Not only cos of work.. there's also e case of my elder bro doin his O's well (L1R4=13)
Im definitely happy for him. But then there's all e bloddy "your kor is in e NORMAL stream, yet can do soooo well. You in the EXPRESS stream, sure can do loads loads loads better ya? See, he only has to put in 2 choices out of e 12 choices. Soooo confident that he will get in ya?"
(apologies to all those normal academic/tech stream peeps. . not sterotyping, jus example)
Pressure.
plain
simple
unneeded
uncalled for
unwanted
Pressure.
Sigh... it comes to e point even where it's either pleasing me or them. Sure they'll say do what u want and follow ur dreams yadayaada.. but ultimately, most of e time they'll be upset/disappointed when u do.
Know wad, only thing right now is to jus to my best and then i'll have all options open to crack my cranium.
wowness.
Heh.. would u believe me if i said i ran off to e library jus cos im tryin but damn, im failing miserably to constantly keep this special bond goin but im tempted to give up whenever i see him cos i dont think he's even bothering?
I thought not. .
It's messy. It's hard to comprehend. But most of all it's hurting.
Dense.
I think im feelin insignificant now.
SCI rawked!! okok.. im supposed to be a lil sad bout it lahz.
right.
So.. sigh... SCI was horrible. sniff sniff.. it's our first and last cos we'll be graduating. *bawl guts out*
But seriously, u could feel e tinge of sadness among e senior prefects(tat means us.) thruout e whole ceremony. We started off as prefects and then now it's transitting over to being student councillors.
Juniors, u go kick some ass!
After e "stuffiness", carried on our tradition our yum-seng.. pics-taking.. and of cos, our yishun LJS makan!
Haahz.. but this yr, bein our last, we paaar-teeed at safra after din. It was so cool. Bowling slash pool slash nuah session slash guys fighting over which gal to send home. . whahaaa!
But sweetly, bobo and i walked there after dinner and really talked things out. Then prayerfully, when he was sendin me home, we talked even more. Wad actually happened.. wad's gonna happen. . mm.. thank God for e opp to do so. Definitely wont wanna see a 4yrs friendship thrown down e UOB building.
kaays..It's now officially 1 am and im gonna fall dead any moment now.
Today basically rawked.
Ciaoz.
Ya know.. there come times in ur life where u feel it's as if God's testing ya. Tryin to balance oh-so-precariously my family, service, friends, studies, funtime, finances, (not in order of cos.) but it's been so tiring. Feel so taken for granted at times. Shant elaborate too much on why. Darn.. God help me. Literally. But still, if u refer to e first paragraph eh? U'd see why im still sitting here typin instead of sittin in some miserable toilet cubicle slitting my wrist. Daddy up there is beautiful. *smiles* Im goin back to mugging now peeps. Dunt forget i love u guys :)
On whether u truely rely on His ultimate love and strength to carry u thru wadeva u may face, on whether u really have pure child-like faith to jus pour evrything out to Him.
Dunno whether tat sounded blasphemious, or whether it's jus me in a foul mood.
But knoe wad? If it is true. .
Im so not gonna fail this test.
I think i love Him too much to do that.
But depressingly... it so so so tough to do it!! Argh! Satan is such a s***head.
Lately been havin these huge migranes tat keeps throbbing and throbbing and blah blah blah, assignments are really killing too.
slowly.
Even now while im sittin here a-bloggin. Wad's runnin thru me noggin is:
But sometimes it's also on my part.. be it im too over-sensitive, or thinking too much.
Im baaaaack! PS: If ur name's not on my 'others' list.. dead sorrie. But dunt cry. Knoe wad u shld do? Tag me ur link lahz!
....for e second time round. . .
And dang.. does my blog look gooooood!!
Hope u peeps wont miss e "face" too much.
*uber huge grin*
There's like oh-so-much tat i wanna type and say and yell, but.... mind's kinda all jumbled up now. zzzZZZz~
sO.. BRIEF summary alright? heheh.. here i go to scream my lungs out!
-Speech day's comin up and my days are bein eaten up wif drill, drill and more drill.
Once again i'm proud to say tat im thankful for mumsy&papa for their genes cos once again i'm right marker for our contingent :)
and... most splendid of all, this yr GB's Guard of Honour!! whahahhaa~ kiss our perky lil -insert ur own word here-
-Dying a slow slow death frm art prep work. 12 layouts + 12 developments cropped frm 8 observations in ONE WEEK is enuff to defunct u nicely.
-Hot topic for e Limmies these days is... ~drumroll drumroll~
MY COMPLEXION! yayz.. mummy's a beautician so obviously she doesnt want me to freak her customers all away right? (i've been lockin myself up in my room to mourn kays. it's THAT bad.)
Now they're feedin me this pill tat comprises of
(1) Bear's bile.
(2) Snake's gail.
(3) somekinda chinese-chinese-herb-which-i -obviously-dunno-how-to-pronounce-and-wont-to-refrain-makin-a-fool-out-of-meself.
It supposedly helps to cure cancer and it's gran's remedy for my face. (Like i said.. it's THAT bad)
Oh yeah.. not to forget e Essence of Fish thing extracted frm e snakehead fish they give me evry 2days to help cleanse ur blood or somethin along tat line. But it tastes reaali good knoe? no kidding. So no complain on this side.
But evry ups has it's downs.. and this "downs" is FACIAL!!! argh!! It really really x 247,5819 times worse than normal pain. And i'm not exaggerating.
This is why im not mummy's facial ambassador.
Sigh.. welcome to my life peeps. Where lil ladies purely suffer for beauty.
But on a lighter note, bloggie's been revived.
And i've still more renovation work to do... sooo wadeva then!
Ciaoz. .. . :}
Sorry for not updating till now peeps.
Juz got back frm Mount E.
Grandma's down wif jauntis. She went for an op on mon to remove gallstones frm her liver (Saw them. They're dead freaky. Cant believe that these kinda things can manifest inside our bodies u know?)
Then docs just informed us that they found cancerous cells around e area.. so instead of a small incision, they prac sliced an inverted V down grandma's ab to remove e cells :(
Still running tests to see if e cancer has spreaded.
Praying real real hard cos if it does spread, she'll have to go for chemo. And pls.. she's already 73. Chemo will jus kill her. .
Got to admit, i couldnt stand to be in e ward. There's this sick sorta dried blood smell inside.. and grandma didnt look like grandma at all. She couldnt speak, and we wont let her cos it required energy, plus some of e aunts believed that bad "qi" would go in her body or somethin like tat after e op. Her complexion's all yellow frm e excess bile and it reminded me of how death looked like on my granddad when we were in malaysia for his funeral.
But u know.. u dont care bout this things when that person lying there is ur loved one and part of ur life. When i was massaging her feet to keep blood circulation goin, all i thought abt was how thankful i am that at least these feet were still warm and she could still acknowledge our presence knoe?
Man.. Im tired too. Running back and forth frm hos is slowly killin me.
Missed classes for 2 days already, tues and then now todae.
Supposed to be getting grocs to cook dinner tonight (missin prac later..) but stopped by to blog this.
So really thank God for those peeps that are still pressing me on, and keeping me&family in prayers.
Love you guys!
And yeah kitty... I'll be strong.
OKaayz~ keep ur head on ppl. Im u-p-d-a-t-i-n-g alrite?
mm.. have gotta tell bout todae. Or more importantly... tonite. heheh.
Suddenly realise tat im an uber expensive gal. mm-hmm...
JH asked me out. (did sorta burst his bubble when i reminded him it wasnt a DATE. . but tat's besides e point.) and he practically paid for evrything! And i do mean EVRYTHING.
He was workin at Windows cafe near Club St, done wif work.. headed to pick me up knoe. dead sweet.. but all round kinda dumb. could have met him at raffles or something. But cos of tat, had so-called special previledges if we went to e cafe to dine. Ambience was real good.. mm.. met sarah dere. She's takin e nite shift. And e buggers had this reserved corner table wif candlelight and this huge (empty..) display winebottle they took down to place there. They placed out ALL e cutlerys too. . . damn. Dinner was yummy. Had complimentary chixs wings and guess wad.. ox tongue. yup. OX TONGUE. It was no wonder i had this nagging feeling that i've heard of Windows bfore. It e cafe famous for their ox tongue sandwich :)
And in case u're wonderin, it tastes like turkey.
-He paid for dinner-
We had 5 mins left to head for Indoor Stadiun. He got tixs for e Perth Wildcats vs. Sydney Kings bball match there. (e Kings won!! whoo~ was hopin they'd win cos e support for Wildcats were like overkill.)
Took a cab to e stadium.
-He paid for cab fare-
Match ended kinda late cos it started at 8.
Brought me to Cosy Bay for dessert. (me and my big mouth.. he was askin whether i was hungry. said no, jus a lil thirsty and... ta-da!)
Had to pay a min of 20 bucks bfore they'd let us have a seat at e top of e abandoned lighthouse turned uber nice place to makan. Wanted to refuse... but noooooo. E darling insisted tat it was okay.
A glass of limejuice+ glass of fruit punch+ peach gelato+ choc mocha gelato= 28 bucks.
And yesh. This zhi cha restaurant DOES have gelato.. and really really good ones too.
Paid for e ambience wad.. and wasnt disappointed. E view is gorgeous.
But e 'best' part of e night was when we were figuring out how to get home and i suggested e NR2 bus frm esplanade lahz. Frm e top of e lighthouse thingy, saw suntec and this path next to e river leadin to it frm pebble bay condo. After dessert..
-He paid for it-
took a looong but cool, few kms walk down towards suntec.. chit-chatting.. when i sudd realised tat e suntec towers was like... next to me. With e s'pore river between us!
There was no place to cross.
-convo-
inez: erm.. how we gonna get across?
JH: i dunno lehz.
inez: later this path leads one whole round how. .
JH: nono, dunt worry. It'll only come to a dead end.
inez: ...... thanks, man.
And he obviously was right. Reached a dead end wif this flyover over us, decided to walk via e flyover till we reach city hall or somethin. So we cut thru this grass slope thing, expecting to come out to e road, but ended up at this uber ooloo-ooloo path. Ya know those gravel paths tat's totally dark ,and then suddenly a pathetic light appears at e end of e path leadin curiously into a forest?? We were facin tat.
And e worse thing was.. e flyover was still flyin over us.
Then.. wonder of wonders(!), there's was a lone taxi few feet away frm us wif e uncle lookin suspiciously dead. But then he threw a fag out and we used this as a good sign to go and beg him to ride us out to e s'pore durian.
-he paid for e cab fare.. again-
Fell dead asleep on e bus on e way home.. dunno wad happened durin tat time. dont wanna know either eh.
And for e first time in my life, e guy who goes out wif me.. comes home to stay over instead.
BUT
in my bro's room lahz.. duh! He's my bro's frien afterall.
Had a great time tho. Been soooo long since i last enjoyed myself out. wif all expenses paid for.
Oh wait... it's e only time.
hehe, nytez peeps
Today is real emo.
It's Merv's aka Papa's bdae!
Merv,bryan,xietingfung,looncifer,ko,preet,mich and muah hit town tog to celebrate.
But it's also e dae i lost my black tube dress! ARH!!!
Dunt wanna think bout it now... am prayin it's still SOMEWHERE around this house.
pls pls pls. I only wore it once on Christmas '04 for heaven's sake.
Plus we were hitting town in semi-formal too.. so e gals were like begging cum forcing me to wear another dress cos they're all wearin too. But....
--> 37 degrees dress: too casual.
--> Pepper dress: too mature, but sadly.. it's e other(only) option.
No choice but to wear e Pepper one. But i look so freaky, machiam working adult like tat.
It fits nicely, but was like goin over e knees and stuff. So. . took a belt and tugged e excess over till it turns to a black mini, man! wahaa~ preet was goin "woah~style~~ i like."
Anywaez, we wreaked havoc at suntec cafe cartel, 2 of their towers, e whole fountain area. Went dere a lil later to join them, but they wreaked on my behalf in millenia walk & ritz calton bfore i came (muahahaa!)
Had loads of fun. No point bloggin EVRYTHING down... wait for e pics to develop first then!! *grinz*
nitez then ppl.. kinda shacked out.
enjoy tml's break toO
P.S: oh yeah.. preet was sayin somethin bout no pic takin in threes or e middle person gets bad luck?? wad's with that.... ... but in e end we still took. duh.
and yesh. i stood in e middle. *rolls eyes*
18th January. -year unknown-
19:37
It was horrible.
One by one, they all died away. . .
From this place. From my life.
They all died from 'it'.
Triggered by water, gone by fire.
Daddy tends the tombs. He cuts their heads off first.
The fire scares me... I'm wondering when will it be my turn next.
Not so soon.. not so soon...
Big brother is in madness now because of 'it'.
He will be next.. he will be next...
I thought of him again tonight.
He was big brother's sworn one. Sworn through bloodpact.
I caused his death. I did.
I couldnt sweep the water away in time... 'it' soaked through the two layers he wore.
The look of absolute terror on his face at that moment is still vivid. Still haunting.
He was looking at me...
I cried again tonight.
(e nightmare i had this evenin... it still scares me.)
So here i am once again to tell all of how i was utterly humiliated. . . again.
Had this uber cute roleplay durin eng lesson bout a court scene after e Titanic disaster, wif e accuseds being ppl aboard e ship at that time playin major roles.. and were thought to have been e causes of e tragedy.
Farni thing was that we were all supposed to be dead and "gone down with the ship" rite?....
I was e radio operator.
First thought tat came: "die. . ."
Anywaez, Su was e judge. And jus let me say tat if this was reality..
Second thought tat came: "die. . ."
So THE moment came when hel stepped out to defend his case. He was e iceberg lookout that was supposed to be on duty at e time aboard.
And guess wad our beloved judge posted. .
"Wad were you lookin at?"
*smacks forehead* Seriously ques of e century, manz.
But e best is yet to come! Now.. at tat point of time, del (diot! u hear me?!) jus had to open that mouth of hers and comment:
"obviously e radio operator lah!"
. . . . . . . . . .
cue- *moronic laughter*
Therefore, due to this unfortunate incident.. 4A2 has been led to believe that e Titanic sank bcos the lookout had been busy... well, LOOKIN at something, or SOMEONE else.
Last and final thought tat came, ppl: "DIE. . ."
"Tiger Cup 2005 has been one of e greatest victories for e Lions now..."
Oh purleeze.. it's like their ONLY victory.
okok, all u soccer freakz can come and wallop me to pulp now.
I stay at one of e blks in sembawang. Hope tat helps.
Riiight. So can i explain myself now? kays. Kinda disgusted by e way we are actin towards these guys who go out dere and play their guts out. Remember a long loooooong time ago when we kept erm.. LOSING.
"Oh yeah... tat time."
Yeah. Tat time. We were e ones criticising them like wad and then now.. ta-da! Practically e whole damn stadium is filled wif red&white. clap~clap~clap~ How supportive of us! Comin frm e very same peeps who threw a trashcan lid at our 'foreign guests' too!!
Not sayin tt im not happy wif their 2-1 win, but im not exactly elated or bursting wif pride either.
mm.. okay. Think i'll keep my comments to myself (eh, nono... i mean to this bloggie premises) since it's comin frm a gal who thinks it's S'pore VS India e first time i switched on e tv. . .IND wad....... okok, bimbo alright?! hmph.
All in all, conclusion shall be that...
-It's a guy thing-
So tell me. In all seriousness.
Do you wet ur toothbrush, squeeze the paste, and then brush ur teeth.
Or do you squeeze the paste on ur brush, wash half of it off, and then brush ur teeth.
I really wanna know. . .
It's been finally revealed (courtesy of darling mummy)... tat im a
MIXED-CHINESE, MIXED-PORTUGESE!
OMG.
And i only got to know this.. like, 15 YEARS LATER(!!!)
Thanks alot ya. .
Thought things like this only happened in movies or those canto dramadrama serials.
Haiz.. so now not only are e comments others make bout which country/continent/planet my looks represent are
1. American.
2. Eurasian.
3. (e latest and most freakiest) Japanese. . .
I've got Portugese to add to e list too.
And i thought that e worse one was that i look 28 when i was 13..
Oh wait. . .
It is still e worse one. . . .
Today amkpc has a milestone in it's history ya.
We held our inaugural service(finally..) in our uber uber gorgeous chapel this afternoon!! *grinz*
Real cool. This family has really grown into something many can be proud of man.. oh, sniff sniff.
Seriously am soooo grateful tat Daddy has brought me to this place and these bros&sises-of-Christ for almost 3 yrs already. Wad say you to another 3 yrs? and many, many more??
whahahaa~
But less 'speechy'-like now.. jh came wif my parents, bro and yve for service today.
Oh man.. wad is my kor tryin to play at?!
Will never forget e "entertain him. ." part too. NEVER.
Think wad.. im ur geisha issit??
ooh... went off to J8 to look for retro specs after e buffet dinner (yummiez.). And, wad-coincidence!, jh had to head to bishan too. So we jus went walkwalk lohz.. got to know him better tho...
man, dint even knoe such a completely thoughtful and gentlemanly guy existed knoe!
But did remind him tt it wasnt a 'date' or anything. heh.. me and my principles eh.
Had great fun today. Especially when muah parents were talkin to e peeps in my life durin dinner. Hahaa, cant help smiling lahz :)
Im off to slp now then,
Ciaoz
Sigh.
Here i go.
Scream my lungs out.
Would u believe i missed my own gb promotion, ppl?
Gosh.. time can be such an arse at times.
Supposedly schedule was to end classes.. head for chiB class.. then for gb promotion parade, before it's off to some reservoir for an outing thingy wif e new sec1 batch.
BUT
Know wad. classes ended.. headed for chiB (which draaagged on for another bloddy 45mins...) and by e time i came down, saw e gals falling out wif their ranks and certs and huge huge smiles.
-Conversation wif mag aka miss foo-
inez: So sorry. Had CLB lesson. (Rach frm chiB was hoverin abt, so tat makes it extra convincing. .)
mag: ok. (looks at parade square where gals are fallin in again.. ~hint hint~)
inez: nono, im havin a hist test now too. And art lessons. And councillors' meeting.
mag: ok. So i'll just mark u excused then.
inez: kays. erm.. wad time are u all leavin for e reservoir? i'll join u all later.
mag: *smile* Not going already. We'll be playin captain's (freakin) ball instead.
inez: (stoned look) . . . . . . . . . .
To top evrythin off, kitty was at spcb mugging and needed quiet company, so i went down.
But think i made kitty angry or pissed or somethin... and maybe even vice versa too.
"Do i really complain that much? Did i even complain at all?"
Gosh.. time can be such an arse at times.
Dammit... in a horrible horrible mood now.
Missed lessons. (and peeps of 4A2, it's soooo NOT bcoz of a rendevous wif yc!! u can shaadup bout it now.)
In pain coz of a freakin diahorrhea.
(mm.. dunt even knoe whether it's spelt that way)
Mummy said somethin bout too much sun and wad e Hokkiens called "seep juah".
(mm.. dunt even knoe whether it's spelt that way)
Whole face is pale and dead scary.. yeeuck. . feelin very impregnated too,man... ..
(mm.. dunt even knoe wheth. . oh wait. Yup. It's spelt that way)
On a brighter note, took time off for extra rest, extra time for e bloddy hist assignment on ColdWar (whee~ im left wif 3 more ques!) and extra time to revamp my friendster account plus transfer music to my muvo too.
heh.. not so bad afterall.
okok.. gotta help me bro out wif his latest obsession now.
Makin muffies. . . God help me.
But 2nd batch tasted like Churros tho.. heheheh~ NO need to blow moola away alreadi!
buaiz peeps
mm.. Grouched todae.
So basically jus dead packed.. But on a brighter note.. it is still God's strength i rely upon anywaez. Definitely not mine.
okiez.. tat's all then. gtg.
*cold.. unfeeling... helps to know tat im pissed wif you. . .
Lemme rant first kays? Bfore we move on to so called 'hAppiEr' stuffz.
Riiight. First term and im already swamped wif work plus assignments ... sigh~
"wad to do.. wad to do.."
Service in church startin to take it's toll too... (not only wif e standard COOL comm, Pierced team, backup singing. .) but there's this valentine's dae event comin up soon and im part of e comm too.
AGENDA
-Gracie (worship)
-Nezzie (secular)
-Corny love storyscene wif Tommy this comin sun.
"oh elvis!"...
"oh marilyn!"....
(dry run on sat.)
And chiB totally rawks too! Papa and i were laughin our butts off when we saw e o'level compo sample. Let's jus say it reminds me of kindergarden lahz... wif e "u're supposed to complete e picture story and dere's even helpin words! Oh wow~ fascinating!!"
And come to think of it.. why shld service to Him eva be a burden??!
Crapz... shld be thankful each & evryday and enjoy it instead.
Still left wif maths and lit to complete.
Nynitez darlings
It's a beeeautiful dae! Jus went for a haircut last nite ppl... heheh.. funky.
Was quite sianz already... cos most of e time, stylists will tell me that cos my rebond work is wearin off and e "quans" are comin out.. so majority of e styles cant be cut. But farni thing was that this time at causeway Protrim, e guy jus passed me this mag and asked me to look for e design i wanted. In my mind was like.. " even if i rack muah cranium to choose, u'd still gimme that stoopid 'quan' excuse rite??!"
But to humour him.. i chose a style and ta-da! Wonder of wonders! He actually cut it knoe.. woah~~ Thank God tat it wasnt some kinda freak look.
Heh, but im still lil ol me. Jus a more funkier me. (in my opinion lahz! cannot zit.)
Anywaez, spent like half an hr in e chapel tryin to chase out this diotic bird that was flyin around inside and couldnt find it's way out. We opened e windows, but it kept flyin higher...
Ironic thing was... i thought i was e only one chasing e pwetty birdie, but in e end, found others tryin to shoo.. oh i mean.. HELP it out too.
Sweet rite? Ur head arz.. they either dint wan it to "shit all over e place", or to "die inside and stink up e whole place". (Frm their own mouth and words)
Saw my ghost todae too. Startin to appear evry so often ever since he left this place.
Mm.. thanks for sat dar. . it was great fun. Hope u dint mind e lil. extra too. hahaah
Man.. im like all BurNed now frm e camp. Half my face is peelin out or something.
Loved last dae e best still. heheh..
But all in all, made new kakis like e B2 imps (I-mash!!!) and of cos... bearbear.
And would u all pur-leeze stop askin me "How come ur face so blaaack hah? Thought these few days all raining??"
DuH.
The camp rawked. Seriously.
Tho e imps were kinda spoilt.. ya knoe they get to have...
Kiddos had to go muck around for area cleaning, and we could finally (finally!) get some decent peace and quiet. hahaa, all of us were in e multipurpose hall nuahing.. majority slpin. Oh yah, ah Di was sooo cute. She was squashed among all our barangs in e corner snoozing.. and she's like freakin small! So fits perfectly among all our sleeping bags and stuffz.
Guyz jus sprawled themselves all over e floor.. typical. Aiyah, finefine... it's called Malebonding okiez?
As for muah, damn farni also.. 4 of us. me, jac, peiqi and ber were like huddled round this peanutbutter biscuit tin *heeeeehh.. lil. bliss on earth*
Eh.. no lahz. We're NOT psycho. Jus that jac brought her mini radio, we got 2 borrowed hp wif radio functions, and basically selfconstructed this pathetic mini-combo thingy on the peanutbutter biscuit tin *heeeehh. . .*
Then juz stoned in front of this contraption and listened to 98.7.. tried to guess which song will come next.. humiliated ourselves as usual by singin...(kays.. maybe a lil psycho lahz.)
Heyz.. i was rootin for 'male band' kz. Hmph.
Got to know him better. All thanks to muah dead flushed red face durin e camp... great openin topic manz... hahaah. Alright. Tired..
Bloggin out ppl.
:)
Arrrrh!! Get those kids away frm meeeee!!!
Man.. dunno wad happened, but e seemingly innocent lookin 1B2 kiddoz suddenly warped into hypermischevious imps or worse.
*rubs cranium..*
Whole dae of games and teambuilding, and definitely not (and seriously CAN'T) forget e OP ScavengerHunt arz! Oh rah-rah.............................
Was lookin after peeps frm reg 1-20, and they were STILL goin on bout "wad's ur name?!!" thingy.
Hahah, an instructor frm outside Protege Inc. was attached to e group too.
Nice guy of 22 yrs, Wei Siong.
Kiddos were tryin to shove him and me tog by e end of e day. yup..dotz.
Imps: (in freakin chi) Brother wans ur hp num!
neZ: (in act-blurriness) hah?!
Imps: BearBear (siong mah..some lame chi stuffz) yao ni tian hua hao mah!!
neZ: hah?!
Imps: Ah siong wans ur NUM!!!
neZ: HAH?!!
But he did ask for me num in e end lahz.. obviously away frm them. Kays.. shant elaborate.
Word of e Day-- detached.
E councillor babez kept shovin me to him also! Damn. He's attached for wadeva's sake! Saw a 'darling' on his hp while keyin in num, (i asked for permission first to view one k.. mm... good gal!)
Only freakz will replace someone's name wif Darlin or Dear or My Future Wifey in 6 yrs Time. . .
(hor kitty horz?) *grinz*
Then faz was like "then detach him lahz." Wad the....
Uber no comments.
Started off by callin him e Uni Guy tho(?!)
Couldnt control my amusement when e leaders (uniguy, faz and muah) had to intro themselves..
Great. So now im known as "I-mash".. or even "mashed potato"..... and e best one, ~drum roll~drum roll~
"da jie da"!! whahaa~
Seriously had probs tryin to rem evryone... but there's uber uber cutie Alex, he's so tiny!! Oh yah.. Eric looks like a mini Konchok knoe... freaky. But shows tat he's gonna be dead gorgeous when he grows up. sigh~*wistful look* And e gals are like followin wadeva i do! Play piano.. play piano. Go washroom.. go washroom. Sat on table.. sat on table. Etc... etc.
Wonder wad's gonna happen durin camp tml till fri. woah. .
But it's seriously loads of fun. This shld be my best sec1 class in 3 yrs ba.
Trainin my maternal instincts or somethin.
But this batch is totally fortunate. Gonna have archery, rockclimbin, abseiling, blah blah... and u call this ORIENTATION??!
Hmm.. alrighty. Gonna go pack now..
Blog 3 daes later then.
Muackz
FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL = 1/2 ELATION + 1/4 DEPRESSION + 1/4 CONFUSION + 6/8 DISGUSTION AT E SIGHT OF LING LAO TAI !!!
But all in all, first day went awesomely well! okok.. largely due to e fact that e prefects... OOPZ!... i MeAN COUNCILLORS (dammit.. they tore down our prefects room to change it to a fweakin GIFTSHOP?!! Moola grabbing diots....)
Anywaez.. we were excused frm classes to take e sec1s under our darling maternally/paternally developing wings lah. hehe... am in charge of 1B2 and they're dead cute~ kawaiii!!
Was crappin round wif them and sorta got them to open up more but then e scary part was tt they started chasin me round after sch cos i din wanna tell them my name, but got them to tell me theirs (It's hell tryin to rem 39 names kays! dunt even bother tryin. . )Wah, freaky knoe..
Hahaaaz, then now they're makin fun of me and this total honey called Fahyad. Man.. nostalgic la...
"fahyad likes e preeeeee-fect~ fahyad likes e preeeee-fect~!"
Oh wadeva..
Gonna be outta class all e way till next mon. Facillitatin orientation camp at Amoy Quee site too. heh... slack arh!!
Allowed to wear cca tee tml cos of e OP scavenger hunt thingy too. (For 3 yrs already man.. zzZZzZZ)
Oh! and e best thing tat happened to me todae? Dear dear kinonn wanted to gimme a ride to sch via cab this mornin noe. *smilez*
BUT......!!!
We're supposed to meet at yishun taxistand at 7am.
I waited till 715 i tell u! And u shld knoe im dead particular bout e guy bein earlier than e gal too. Was prac fuming when had to take e train then run to sch cos im takin flag-commandin at 725.
Freakin bell rang when i stepped into e pref... COUNCILLORS room. Thank God bobo took over for me.
[Bobo, u're a sweetie (: ]
Kays.. gtg sleep now. . another looong dae tml.
Love ya peeps, great to cya all again
*winkz*
Think today is one of e worst days of my lil life. .
Day started off wet and gloomy, with my head throbbin with a slight headache.
Was supposed to sing backup but only realised it too late when i reached there, and saw poor jerry standin next to this miserable empty microphone.
Was pourin like mad by e time we came out of service. Thought we'll be headin for cell, but found out it's a combined COOL meeting instead and e comm din even discuss bout it. Evrythin was sorta last min but thank God evrythin ran smoothly tho.
still pourin. . .
Rushed off to bishan to grab some stuff ,but not bfore i was hit again by another freakin jealousy syndrome by e Man Downthere. But e Lord is merciful.. my faith in Him will NOT be torn by bloddy sinful desires.
it's still pourin. . .
By e time i headed home and then to pingz place, mind was goin mad both physically and emo-nally.
Bein me, I'd jus blame it on sch startin tml or even better.. e weather.
But knoe wad... irregardless of wadeva, still wanna thank Him tat at least im still alive to face another sucky day. If He's able to carry me thru todae, trust He'd definitely be able to carry me thru now & forevamore.
It's been ages (3 yrs to be exact.) since i last cried over someone.. especially when it's a guy.
Din wanna think abt it. Would rather jus take evrythin step by step, day by day. Hate changes. .but
"E only thing that never change is change itself..."
So-called last few days with you and yet, totally blew precious time away by either havin petty quarrels.. or even not really talking jus so to ignore e obvious fact that things are gonna.. sigh.... change.
Almost emo-damaged myself to death jus seein u around when all i wanna do is buang my head on e wall frm a killer migrane (hope that explains e grouchiness..)
It doesnt help tat u're alwayz surrounded by ur many meimeis, and that im born horribly jealous either.
(hope that explains e msg..)
Give me time kays? So not used to this..
Also.. no. Definitely no. Like i said, It's my prayer that we wont grow distant or lose this special relationship.. cherish u too much for tat to happen.
Right. Think im gettin too mushy already..
and heyz, im jus a phone call away too :}
-Ur boo.
Riiight.. so we stayed up till round 7 in da mornin before it's off to mac for brekkie.
zzzZZzZz. . . .
Took a "short nap" till 5pm when i reached home. sigh~
Oh yaah.. mummy, i made a new friend todae. *wittle girlie blush*
He's a GUY. (gasp!)
Yeahyeah, how contraversial ppl... anywaez, one of me bro's frien (as we are tryin to protect e referred party frm further "demoralization", we'll jus refer to him as JH shall we?) gave me a...eh?.. Christmas pressie. yup.
And there's somethin goin on bout how last yr's stuff shouldnt be brought over to e new yr?? Arh... crap lahz.. those pangtang peeps
It's uber sweet, noe.. a teddy bear somemore. (damn.. suddenly have this freaky deja-vu feelin.....)
T.E.D.D.Y.B.E.A.R.
All i can do is pray tat this is not another potential hi-can-i-be-ur-future-bf-cum-husband situation.
Nice guy tho. Charming. Charmed e pants off daddyo durin dinner too.. (i made pizza!!!) Dad now thinks JH's God's gift to a financially disabled family cos he's workin and calculative and smart and charismatic and blah and blah and e best of all, BLAH.
Tired now.. knockin off.
Pleasantville rawked.
Nitezz ppl.
PINGZ DARLING, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! and yah..i wont forget it's 10.33pm!
HAPPY NEW YEAR ARZ PEEPS!!!
"SHOULD OLD ACQUAINTANCES BE FORGOT AND NEVER BLAH.. BLAH.. BLAAAH!!"
I'm finally a sec 4 freak!
sO.. accordin to unreliable sources, this means im now anti-fun, pro-bookwormie rite.
Yeahyeah.. now at stevendawnie's place wif loads and loads of uber crazeee bros&sises-of-Christ who decided NOT to go for e Countdown, but to have rounds of Bridge and Cranium instead. . .
Hehe, no lahz.. say until so.....*evil smirk*
Decided against Countdown too.
Wouldnt mind if it's in town but since it's at sentosa.. NO WAY!!
Not gonna don a bikini and go gyrate wif miles of hyper-horny ppl.
Like mamane says,
"Go there wif bikini.. on e way home, eh? Where's my bikini??"
Or in simple simple words...
"U're gonna get STRIPPED baby!!"
And come to think of it... WHY E HELL ARE WE CELEBRATING WHEN A FREAKIN TSUNAMI DISASTER JUS OCCURED???
Oh man.. okok.. so e fireworks display is off and there'll be a one min of silence for e victims, but oh pls. . it's still kinda....
sucky.
Not expectin e whole Countdown to be called off lahz! Plannin comm nightmare i tell u. But it's still kinda....
sucky.
Oh well, off to have fellowshippin now. Stayin over till tml..
Enjoy urselves but not too much pls... have a heart kays?
heh...
sucky.